Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I have wanted to adopt for as long as I can remember. It is my passion. It is my desire. It is my greatest wish. It would be one of the greatest gifts I could imagine.
For now...I surrender this to God. I trust Him. We have tried to adopt several times in the past few years and it has always fallen through. I know it will happen when the time is right. I know that HE works all things together for our good. Obviously, it has not been for our good yet! I believe it will be in the future.
We recently considered pursuing adoption through the foster care system. It's free, by the way! In Florida there is a Foster-to-adopt program. This means that you must qualify as a foster parent before you can adopt. This includes going through 10 weeks of classes (3 hours/week), and then completing a home study before a child can be placed with you. Therein lies the problem. With the campaign taking off, there is no guarantee that Roger would be able to attend all of the classes. We have to attend every class. If you miss, you must make it up. I really don't see how we can do it right now. If he wins, we definitely will not be able to take the classes.
So, what's next? I have no idea. And that is why I know I need to surrender this. I know that I need to take care of my husband and my children and my home and wait for God to lead us down this path when the time is right, and when the right child is waiting for us. And for now...
I will wait for that child!
I was praying about this recently. I was telling God: "You know I have the best intentions! You know we have a great family who could easily adopt and love that child as our own. There are too many children who need homes! Why should we have to wait when these children are waiting and we are willing??? This doesn't make sense!!!" And, do you know what He said?
"Haven't I always taken care of you? I am taking care of them." And so I trust Him.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Ian loves to roll around on his bedroom floor, but he seems to be spending more time on his hands and knees the past few days. He hasn't figured out how to crawl, but he is so close. He is sitting up well and even figured out how to go from his belly, to hands and knees, to sitting a few days ago. He still isn't a really sturdy sitter, but he is definitely getting stronger.
Ian still gets 4-6oz bottles per day...breakfast, lunch, dinner, and bedtime. He eats some kind of baby cereal mixed with formula each morning (a small cup). For lunch he is still on stage 2 baby food and will eat 1.5 jars at each lunch and dinner. Every now and then he will eat both jars. We tried to give him stage 3 food last week, but it was too chunky and he got really choked. We'll wait a few more weeks to try it again.
Daily schedule: awake around 7:00, nap at 10, bottle at 11:30, lunch at 12:00, nap around 3:00, bottle at 4:30, dinner at 5:00, bottle at 7:30 and off to bed.
He is jabbering much more! He plays with his toys on his bedroom floor and makes all kinds of noises. He is a mommy's boy for now, but loves the entertainment he receives from his sister and brothers. He isn't lacking attention!
Ian has started showing his will. He has arched his back a few times as I was putting him in his car seat, and he does the same when he doesn't want his diaper changed. He settles down quickly, though. For the most part...he is a very happy little guy...and super cute, too!!!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
My sweet boy is feeling better, but not great yet. He now has four teeth! It's so hard to be sick and teething at the same time.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
He drinks a bottle here and there, but he will not eat food. I really think he has Rotavirus. I really hope it goes away soon. He is so miserable that he won't even smile. The other day he went to sleep in my arms at 9:30 in the morning, and I had to wake him up at 2:30, so I could change him and get him to drink a bottle.
He is sitting up pretty well. He will still topple over, but he is doing well. He is also trying to get on his hands and knees. I'm in no hurry for him to crawl! I know how easy I have it right now with him being immobile!
Please pray for my sweet baby.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Well, Ian's second bottom tooth popped through, and now his two top teeth should be through any day. His gums are so swollen and I know they are hurting because he has not been as happy the past two days. I feel so bad for him. I am trying to keep him on Tylenol or Ibuprofen during the day and teething tablets. I also have the little thing that he can hold on to and has a little mesh bag attached where I can put food, or grapes in for him to gnaw on. He loves it! I have put a banana, grapes, and ice in it so far.
Ian still gets a bottle four times a day, some kind of baby cereal at breakfast, one stage 2 jar of food at lunch (although he at a jar and a half tonight!), and then another jar at dinner. He likes sweet potatoes, squash, green beans, peas, and bananas, but still isn't crazy about peaches. I tried to give him some baby food that had a few small chunks in it, but he gagged, so he isn't ready for that yet.
Big news!!! He is sitting up fairly well. I would not sit him on the floor and walk away, but he is doing so much better. He has also been pushing up on his hands and trying to get his knees up under him, too. I'm in no hurry for him to crawl!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
God may be closing my womb, and I have to admit that I am really struggling with this. We knew after having Miles (our big 9 pound, 11 ounce boy!) that some damage had been done to my body. We were not told not to have anymore children, but that someday I would need to have surgery to fix things.
After having Ian we knew a little more damage was probably done, but we didn't know how much because I was seeing a new doctor. She also said that I would definitely need surgery in the future, but it wouldn't be wise to have surgery until I was done having children.
Recently I have felt things getting worse. I saw my doctor today and she confirmed that things are much worse than they were six months ago. She said I could have more children if I wanted to, but it would cause more damage, and that she will need to do a partial hysterectomy when I am done having children. Wow! That was not what I expected to hear at 35 years of age. She was, by no means, telling me that we should not have more children...for the record.
So...now Roger and I have a HUGE decision to make. Do we have one more? Is this the end of pregnancies for us? God...what do YOU want us to do??? I really thought I would have one more, so the thought of never giving birth to a precious baby is very sad for me.
I really am not looking for advice, so please do not tell me what you think I should do. This is between me and Roger and God. I don't say that to be rude, but I really don't want anyone to influence us as we try to pray and listen for God's will. I would be really grateful if you would pray for us, though. I wish we didn't have to make this decision, but we do, and I feel so much turmoil and emotion.
Whether we have another baby through our own birth, or not...God is not done growing our family. We hope to adopt in the future, so we know our family isn't done growing yet! It may be that God has given us an answer, by way of our doctor, and paving the way for the future to adopt. He didn't give us a passion and desire to adopt for no reason! Take a look at www.reecesrainbow.com and see the many reasons we hope to adopt!
Thank you for praying for us and with us!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Miles came into my arms three years ago. He was HUGE!!! He weighed 9 pounds, 11 ounces! He had a triple chin, chubby thighs, and blonde, wavy hair. I was induced 12 days late, but had only gained 17 pounds, so we had no idea he would be so big!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I think Ian has another tooth working its way through, but it's not there yet. He is in his new schedule pretty well now...7:30--6 ounce bottle, small cup of rice ceral; 10:00--nap; 12:00--6 ounce bottle and small cup of food (he tried green beans this week, but is not too fond of them, he tried sweet potatoes on Sunday, but wasn't too fond of that either, he tried squash today and wasn't too fond of it at first, but seemed to like it after several spoonfuls); 2:30--nap, 4:30--6 ounce bottle; 5:30--dinner with the family...baby oatmeal; 7:30--6 ounce bottle and off to bed for the night.
I'll keep working on vegetables through the weekend, and then we'll probably move on to fruits next week.
Ian's favorite things: Mommy, Daddy, his doting sister and brothers, rice cereal and oatmeal, his bottle, his thumb, his TOES (loves them!).
Thursday, August 13, 2009
So, here is his new schedule:
He typically gets a 6 ounce bottle at 7:30, then a small cup of baby cereal mixed with formula. He loves it! Then he takes a nap from 10:00-12:00. When he wakes up he gets another 6 ounce bottle. He gets another 6 ounce bottle between 2:30 and 3:00, and goes back to bed for another nap. He wakes up around 4:30 or 5:00, gets another 6 ounce bottle, then he gets a small cup of baby oatmeal when we eat dinner a little before 6:00. He gets a final, 8 ounce bottle at 7:30 and goes straight to bed.
I snapped a lot of green beans this afternoon and cooked them, so tomorrow I will mush them up in my handy chopper, and let Ian try them. Food...here we come!